The truth of our personal identity is not a matter for compromise. It may be contained by running and hiding. The truth will eventually come out. It’s time for the truth to come out.
I didn’t hold myself in high regard. And I knew that there would not be peace until the accounts were settled.
A long time ago, I went on a personal fact-finding trip.
I wanted to know if the internal conflict that caused my anxiety and depression was due to a suspect personal truth.
I left no stone unturned.
The Personal Truth Mission
It was so overwhelming that I even wrote a poem while on the road. In “The Hardest Thing,” I spoke about “a deep, honest view,” “the run gone,” and “holding on to what is true.”
It’s at the end. It might hit home.
Get chin-deep
Over the years, I have thought a lot about the poem and the mission. The poem is still guiding me as I embark on a new adventure.
I would guess that I wrote the piece 35 years ago at age 33. I had stopped drinking several years earlier, but was still plagued with anxiety and depression symptoms. It’s funny now that I was walking DSM.
You better believe that I would dig deep into my own truth, what I believed it to be, what it actually was, and how it should be.
I was in pain.
“What’s my personal truth?”
You know what I found out? I had no clue.